Confessions of a Kashmirican

This morning I drove silently When I looked up And saw the moon Closer than ever She’s almost full now - I gasped in awe At the Queen’s beauty Shining in the starless sky Before I once again meet The blazing sherbet sun, Please let me stay a moment Under the quiet moonshine

… I need a minute to breathe. *** As it turns out, the arranged suitor (and his mom) believe in anti-vaxx theories over the CDC. So much so, that the guy himself is willing to lose his job instead of getting vaccinated. 1) I’m almost shocked at myself for the 180-degree shift in my mind from ”loving” him to wanting to have nothing to do with him, 2) I’m wondering what other things he might believe in that would be a dealbreaker, and 3) I guess deep down, I was looking for an excuse to get out of this. (Yeah, definitely shitty of me.) Whatever the case is, I want to call it off. My family knows this, and yet they’re asking me to give him another chance to talk it out. I don’t want to, but I can’t avoid this tough conversation forever. What do I do…? *** I watched a movie with my family on Saturday, that finally highlighted the truth about our community’s genocide and the current twisted narrative being driven today. It was so raw, so brutal… and yet so brilliantly done. It’s got people

Life is complicated. Emotions are complicated. People and situations are complicated. Oh, but how I wish it were all simple! I already feel so guilty . I love my future husband to the point where I’m afraid of losing him. And yet, I’ve still got this one lingering regret… I have to let go of one more person before I can move on. It’s suffocating me. I have to let it out. I have to say something. Even if he never reads it. *** Dear Mr. Hobbit, I’m sorry. I’ve had a crush on you since the very first time I met you. It’s not the first time I’ve fallen for someone with a military background, but that’s not the only thing that caught my attention. You’re handsome, in a cute sort of way. You’re the most vigilant and reliable person on your team (as others around me will agree). You’re kind and understanding, while being confident and unafraid to speak your mind. And you’ve got a damn good sense of humor! Even though it took me ages to open up to you, I’m thankful to have known you as my cow

Hello 2022! Nice to meet you! I’m… The biggest idiot on the face of the planet. *** Last Saturday, I accidentally set the clothes drying machine on fire. I had quickly taken the lint out as usual before starting it, but didn’t realize that a tiny bit of it had fallen back down… We called the fire brigade as quickly as we could and got everyone out. We’re all fine now, the worst thing that happened was that the drying machine got burnt and needs replacing. But yeah, that shook me up quite a bit. Lesson 1000% learned, the hard way. *** We lost our paternal grandfather in India, a couple days ago. He apparently died of cardiac arrest, just as he was turning off the TV before going to sleep. Everything’s been feeling surreal now. While I wasn’t close to him the way I was close to my maternal grandparents, it’s been a great loss nonetheless. Our family’s shaken up right now, but I know we’ll all make it through somehow… *** In the midst of all this, I’ve come to like Mr. Perfect… a lot . H